YES.
can i touch you?
MAYBE.
can i hold you close and embrace you?
NO.
Intricate as it may seem, but this is how the wind is to me. As I walk down the road that leads to where I am supposed to be in a minute or two, a gentle breeze would softly pass... Yes, wind, I can feel you. Yes, wind, when you pass through my fingers, it's as though I can touch your gentle wings... Yes wind, I know you are there... and yet you are not willing to be embraced. Not by anyone. Not by me.
I so want You... yes I did, in many ways but one.
Did I ever really, at some silly, shallow, insignificant point in my life, did I ever really, truly, sincerely, genuinely, deeply get the chance to find and know You? If I did, how come I could not find much significance still? I used to feel You wherever I am, and yet now, when I need You the most, would You.. COULD You really do abandon me???
DESPERATION.
Must I always come to this end? Must I always find myself in much desperation for rescue just so I would find the strength to scream out Your Name for help? A lifetime on earth is as short as a tick of a clock, they say... how come it does not feel that way? Must I really endure pain to find myself, once again, within Your courts of grace? If only I listened. If only I learned while it was not yet too late. And now the consequences of my actions await.
WHAT MUST I DO???
A yes? A no? A maybe?
one word is all I ask.
no. forget that last sentence.
i need thousands and thousands of words of reassurance to ease my fearing and doubting mind...
A yes? A no? A maybe?
speak the word.
let me hear You again.............
