crying...

...at the end part of the movie The Love Affair.

Pretty dumb, i'll own up to that accusation. BUT it's a touching movie! haha! i'm bound to shed a tear or two. :p

Anyway, over the past few days I have come to the conclusion that I should get rid of ideations of romance and building romantic relationships with someone.

*sigh*

two ex - boyfriends and one current "relationship" with someone similar to what Amanda Peet and Ashton Kutcher had in the movie A Lot Like Love isn't exactly what I had in mind for a track record in the "world of love"... whatever that "love" may mean.

*sigh*

I have always meditated the Scripture found in I Corinthians 13:1-13 wherein apostle Paul speaks of the real essence of LOVE. As I continued my journey in faith, I have been given the privilege of attending seminars on Love, Courtship and Marriage...

...but perhaps I've never really appreciated it? Perhaps the reason why I never really took the principles and values that the speakers were trying to inculcate seriously was for the very fact that i thought it doesn't really apply to me. Like as if I were a cyborg; incapable of feeling...

...oh how very mistaken I was. Very mistaken, indeed.

LIMERENCE is taking me away...

(Ecclesiastes 1:2)

"Vanity of vanities! ...all is vanity."

time to grow up.